Im gonna break down these walls i built around myself
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Sunday, April 25, 2010, 12:37 AM
Six(tyNine)th
Scared out of my wits. Butterflies in my stomach. Melancholy. As we walked on, all I could think about was nothing. Or rather, I don't remember what I was thinking. It wasn't the right thing to think though, I guess. Everyone stopped at their spots. I walked to mine. The lights and the empty faces filled my eyes. The only thing I could see were shadows. Everyone's. It started. My body moved on it's own. I couldn't see anything in the crowd. Or hear anything other that the music. We continued on. The hundreds of gazes. I blanked. I lost it. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't control myself. It peaked at about half way through. At that time I was totally off. It went downhill from there. I wanted it to stop. But it went on. On and on. I never really got a good look at the crowd. I have no idea on what it looked like. The only thing I saw where lights. Bright white lights. As it came to a full stop I became speechless. The lights faded away and we left. All I could think of after was letting everyone down. Being worthless. Only causing trouble. Dead weight. Garbage. At least you were there. Even though we didn't really talk a lot anyway. We never really do anyway. I continue to wish to be with you as I hear you laugh and have a good time with others. If only I could bring you that happiness. That smile. I lost myself to the darkness then. Only thinking about how horrible I was. I was a disgrace. I am a disgrace. Too many apologies, I guess I can't do anything. I feel bad. For those who could have done better without me. Where do I belong? I never really fit in anywhere. I want to be with you more. But you're in a territory where I probably don't belong in. Since I'm the only one who's different. I should learn my place in this world. I should realize reality. I don't know where to go anymore. What to do. What can I do to pass the time. I'm going no where. Fast.
Saturday, April 24, 2010, 9:29 PM
Be straight up with me please. I know I am probably over-thinking and over-reacting as usual, but I just want to know if we still have what we had. I guess all I really wanted was to be with you and be important to you. But I know you are very popular and have many friends. And I know that I am not your greatest priority. You have things to do and people to see. I happy that I'm one of them. But is it still the same? It was amazing at first. When we had a lot of time with each other. But as school started, we didn't have too much time together. I started missing you more and more and seeing you less and less. I might be because of that wall between us. But I think we can get over it. I want to. I just want to know if you still feel the same.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010, 9:39 PM
God knows.
Gone my name... Now leave on dark and no good days. In time before, life's catching up, got to shine. Under tower, you lose it Taking denying. Moon could live, I had wrong timing. Fool.. of course you'd.. Sad luck awakened, I'm certain to see my want under long regrets. What do you see? Truth has taken your made up lines Same kind of meaning to knock out desire. Keep on, other power could go your in take. Go heaven. Mirror all your heartaches. Your style is any. Time-machines, can't change the whole year. Fly away, cause I love new you and my Feet are leading the breaks.
I run away. I'm closing off my heart to the world. Apologies-- I guess I can't do anything. You never stay. And I know it just makes me afraid. How can we heal, if you wont let us share our pain? I can't leave. My life is just so empty without you. So I will stay with you, and I will try to live on the lonely rail.
That's why I'll follow you forever Even if I never see anything but you agony Because you shine through the darkness that has swallowed the world Now that the future is approaching Weakness is encroaching But I won't let that destroy my soul I'll do it my way, and that means I am with you I love you so God Bless.
Can I get some? Miss you and talk, that's all I do.
Only God knows...
Monday, April 12, 2010, 9:01 PM
im officially missing you.
Friday, April 9, 2010, 8:53 PM
SSDD
It's always the same. Nothing changes. Maybe there's a few differences, but it's still the same. Every day. Every night. Someone please change it. I hate this Same Shit Different Day crap. It used to be different, but I guess I eff'd up somewhere. It isn't the same anymore. Just be straight up with me. Cuz right now, keeping things to yourself and just leaving me hanging here alone hurts. It's kind of ironic, I guess. Like a taste of my own poison, because it's not medicine. And right now, you're the only antidote. GlHfKs.
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